The Grind Is Real. Fighting Through an ICE COLD Streak.
Is it just me or did your life just change when you entered this blog? It’s not just me, it’s not just you, it’s both of us. Thanks for stopping by and I hope you enjoy my dark thoughts. I am writing this morning to try to vent, clear my head, and support anybody else getting their butt whipped. Read at your own risk and try not to punch your laptop.
I normally do a value report for NBA and I am not going to lie, lately I have been stinking. Stinking is a nice way to put it, I have been a hot smoldering pile of hippo poo (think Ace Ventura). I am ICE COLD and it’s just been a rough go and it’s been hard mentally. I have been questioning my process, using other’s strategies and losing that way too, and overall just doubting myself. No bueno.
If you have been reading my previous blogs you would know and probably wrote it down and then told your family about how I have not re-deposited in 3 seasons and been able to withdraw every year for fun/life. If you haven’t go ahead and print this out and just put it on your fridge, I know you’re proud of me. I have been able to do this because I remained consistent. I am currently anything but consistent. I am the Elfrid Payton of the DFS world.
I am at an impasse right now. Do I take a few days off, refresh, re-think, and come back feeling like Justin Beiber? This morning I did what usually helps me when I am down and teetering on being out, I grab an apple fritter, a coffee, blast some Beiber and I take a few minutes to enjoy. DFS needs to be looked at as a distance race, not a sprint. It’s easy to see your lineups are tanking that night on the main slate and then chase the white rabbit, stupid Neo, and end up dumping 30% of your bankroll into a late slate. We have all been there and it stinks, worse than the diapers I have to change daily. It’s a bad feeling, you’re pissy and grumpy and let it control your moods. It isn’t even always the money, it’s the fact that you spent all day listening to four podcasts, read 8 articles, spent hours using the tools here at RotoGrinders and other websites. It’s the excitement and anticipation you had coming into the slate that just crashed and burned within the first thirty minutes of the slate. I want to personally thank Chris Paul, Lucas Nogueira, DeMarre Carroll, Tony Parker, and Anthony Davis for being called out after lock and/or getting injured in the first half over the past 10 days of my games. I have lost about 50% of my money before 8pm over that short time period.
It’s the stuff we can’t control that is the hardest to swallow. I want to tell you there is a light at the end of the tunnel but there isn’t. Taking a few days doesn’t change anything, it only let’s you at least calm down and think clearly. I implore you, no – I CHALLENGE you, to take a second next time you’re in the gutter. You don’t need to take any days off, but take a minute. Wait an extra couple hours to research and/or listen to pods. Don’t let it control your moods and thought stream. I won’t say that it’s just a hobby and just have fun, because it isn’t. A lot of us are doing this for supplemental income, for vacation money, for rent money, or to pay off your wife’s shopping spree. This started as a hobby and has turned into something I would feel so blessed to call a career…but I am not there yet. I am not even close. I am still a mortal human aspiring to reach greatness and be considered one of the best.
That leads me to my last thought in the twisted, winding blog road I have taken. DFS and Donuts are what keep me going, I am seeking the glory, not the money. I am seeking the apple fritter not the calories. Find what it is you are looking for out of this. If it is just for fun but you are losing, then do something crazy like TRY TO HAVE FUN. If it is for money, then take a second to re-focus and get your mind right and get back in there. If it is for the glory, then keep grinding because the greats don’t take a day off. Whatever it is that keeps you going, whatever it is that got you into this, go back to that. Get back there mentally, stay there, engross yourself in it, and try not to let that reasoning escape you again.
I wish you the best of luck in fighting your way out of your cold streak. If you are on a heater, congrats, we hope to join you soon enough.
Keep grinding and cowboy up!